Sleepless Nights

"Red as the dusky sky, you left me
Shying away far, hiding from me
Once so dear, disloyal you've become
Oh what times, what distant dream
Weaving new thoughts, games it plays 
Beg you oh my, come to me..."
- 'Raw Rasin'


I=Eyes
You=Sleep
It=Mind

God sent Angel

"Go and kiss the zenith, I'll give u everything. Flutter your wings, dance on cloud nine.
I'll just take few things in return, your sleep, your youth, your rhyme…

At first I whistled, enjoyed the breeze, the pearls, the diamonds, the mine…

Then it dawned on me, the deal was stale as wine.
Eyes tired, lonely in selfish crowd, a void inside, no peace of mind.

Take all back I said, give me that was mine.
Don't you dare complain now, shouldn't you pay the dime.
Mercilessly he said, I got all your dreams aligned.

I pleaded the stone, crying...
What did I do to deserve this? Nothing he said, you wished, you are just paying the fine.
The wheel can't stop now, it’s the mighty Time.

But yes, you are my favorite son, when the moment is right, an Angel would come in your life.
You'll get back the things that are worth treasuring the family, the friends, the shine...
Keep it close to you heart, when you get the find"

 - 'Raw Rasin'

Mystery eyes

"Filled up to brim with innocence
They lighten at a mere mention of someone
Seeing through the ashes
Always probing for that good soul with tender heart
Sweet as a pie, they just melt you away"

- 'Raw Rasin'

Cul-de-sac

"Drowning with the dusk of its destiny

a ray breaks the monotone of tick tock. 

You are close, says a whisper

He hits a mirage, the devil laughs.

Hiding that dry tear that never fall, smiling

He dusts himself up again, witnessing

the test of time he still stands tall.

For no good deed goes unpunished, he told me

I too wait for that another ray to rekindle the dew inside."

- 'Raw Rasin'

Meaning/metaphors:

In an uneventful time, the protagonist who has hit a dead end, sees some hope (ray) to finally get what he desires. However on approaching, it turns out to be a fallacy (mirage). Setup by someone who finds pleasure in seeing others in pain (the devil).  The protagonist is not taken aback as -although hopeful, somewhere inside he knew the ray was destined to fail. Having done no wrong, he proceeds with hope, despite all the odds. And I (anyone who witnessed his journey or illeism by protagonist himself) gets my strength from him

Adieu!

Tomorrow Hyderabad chapter of my life would close and so would my longest and best stint so far.

I saw a LOT in these ~7 years, some memorable and other for which I wish I had a Neuralyzer.

Professionally I was living my dream; which, as all good things, has come to an end.

Personally? Well... Let's just say I wish if it was just a dream, the ones which you wanna pen down on a piece of paper, rip it apart… toss it in the trash and move on.

I wish it was all that easy.

When a tornado has emotionally drenched you, sucked up all your energy and happiness from your life and left you in a 'complicated' state. Then (to quote/misquote Woody Allen) – “one road leads to despair and utter hopelessness and the other to total extinction and you have to choose the right road.”

With no roads left, this blog tells about what happens next... In attempted poetic verses

- 'Raw Rasin'

PS: I'm no poet nor I aspire to be one. These are words straight from heart, just to vent out my feelings. Genuine Poets please forgive me for this stupidity. All feedback's good, bad, ugly are welcome.